uhh...what happen again?

Oit oit! Selamat hari raya!

Ok, straight to the point. Actually this post isn't about raya.

Just wanna made some emotion expression a lil bit.

Based on previous posts, i had this one crush.

If any of the readers if the loyal ones, that follow every post in this blog, u guys probably know how it'll end.

Hope, fail, hope and then fail.

Yeah, i'm not too surprised if this happen again either. Well, it happened.

( Biasa lah, harapan tu sentiasa muncul )

Okay, about this crush of mine, well, u know, the situation mentioned above, occur.

But not entirely fail neither close to the first step of succeed.

I'm not giving up but...hmmm, how do i say this...

I'm not frequently calling her like i used to, not saying 'miss her' again and again, like i loved to before.

I just... don't know what to do. She hadn't response like i were expected.

What i can conclude is, for her, i'm not different like the other guys that into her.

( Oh gosh, please treat me, look me, as the special one, at least for one relationship T^T )

She said that she treat her friends much more special than boyfriend, asked me rather be her friends.

Damn it! i hate friendzoned!

And if she treat each of her friends special, there's nothing special about it.

As i said, i just dunno what to do. Move on? Onced a girl's name written, it'll be like shit to move on.

Well, Happy Eid Ul Fitr 2012 by the way. See ya.

inside and outside and both

They say don't judge the book by it's cover.

It's inside that important. Including choosing your lovemate.

Here's my story.

My friend onced told me about people that want their mate to be a good on the outside,the appearance.

It went something like this,

'Kalau kamu nak awek/pakwe cantik/hensem, kamu boleh gerenti ke dia akan still cantik/hensem pada esok hari? Kalau dah accident ke jadi pape, muka dia dah buruk, kalau kamu ni jenis yang pandang rupa, kamu nak kat dia lagi? Silap haribulan kamu yang tinggalkan dia."

Well, 

I was captivated by one's beauty

But of course, i didn't put a high hope towards her at first.

I called and talked.

But when the days went by, somehow my feeling towards her grow...til now.

We've never met, still i don't know what happened to me.

I didn't attracted to other girls.

Longing to hear her voice, like, everytime of everyday.

Felt like the world is mine when she said 'i miss u too'.

Stalking her fb page, envy with some comments.

Haha, who could ever guess i would fall for someone who i'd never met.

Yeah, it just like Euro Trip movie. pfft.

There was a moment, her friend, which also a friend of mine, told me.

' Nanti kalau kau jumpe dia depan2, dia biasa2 je.'

He talked about her looks.

Then i said,

' kalau dia accident, muka dia dah buruk sekali pun, aku tetap nak teman dia kat hospital tu, teman dia sampai bila-bila.'

Okay, i know that's some kind of a longshot but it just came out from my mouth.

From my heart.

Everyday, i'm expecting to hear her voice.

Feel somehow disappointing when i didn't but i'll stay strong.

I'll have faith. I'll pray to be hers.

I'm not fully attracted to her beauty. I just feel happy how she made my day everytime i talk with her, without she knowing it that she did.

Oh God, i wish i could tell her how i feel.

I wish i could tell how much i miss her,

tell her how much i love her.

p/s, currently in love with SN

Catalyst

Woohoo,it's been a long time,yeah.
Got a lot stories to tell but since currently i'm bintulu,so the internet connection is kinda sucks here.

 But one story could made it this time. ( what the heck am i saying =.='' )

So, where to start?

Oh yeah, those who know and knew me better, i'm kinda live a life like Ted Mosby's.

Searching for the 'one'.

Who's Ted Mosby? Go watch 'How I Met Your Mother'.

And at my campus, there's a big whole of a batch of juniors came in.

Some of them did caught my attention. And now?

Well, i do had attention towards a girl but she's not a student here.

Yeah, at the peninsular.

I knew her at facebook. I know, it's kinda not a good thing to have a crush on someone by the internet.

But after knew her for a while, I could say she made my day everyday.

She is a friend of my junior and somehow he introduced me to her.

Then, we talked over the phone, bla bla bla~

And i sensed something great.

Something great 'til i had the spirit to study for my Fish Disease test that i'll face for the next day.

EL STUDY??? yeah, i couldn't believe myself  eitherXD

I know when i typed this, some would say that i study over a girl doesn't make any sense.

But in reality, that's me, haha :P

  And guess what? I got a second place for the test! Almost beat the first though.

 I'm not gonna boast here. Everyone could pass with flying colours.

But I'm the least expected person to pass this test...or any test at all =.=''

I mean,seriously.

We're not in being together or in a relationship....yet XP

Anyhow, what i'm saying here is she's my catalyst.

And her is Sarah Nell.

( I dont know what 'Nell' stands for )

Oh God, I miss her voice. XD

I was there

" The back of my head felt warm. A warmth that made me opened my eyes. I smiled.
I saw your face staring at mine. With that sweet eyes of yours, I felt like I'm in my world.
 I laid on your lap, sharing earphones, listening to love songs, together.
 My hand reached for yours, brought it to my lips as I didn't wanna let it go.
My mouth mumbled, saying those three words. You replied. My heart trembled with joy.
Only God knows how much I missed those words to come out from your mouth.
 But reality hurts. My eyes opened for the second time and there, I was alone.
 Not before long, a scene that about the same with the one from my sleep, took place.
Only this time, I was the witness.
Watched from afar, stood still, speechless.
 I already knew it from the moment I woke up. I knew that sweet dreams aren't sweet at all.
I knew it all along 'cause I was there. All the time. "

friendzoned : fail start

Recently, 'forever alone'

Well, I think most people know who i am with.

Yesterday, 'we' ended. But the thing that pissed me off is all those promise.

 

I mean, FUCK! what happen to those sweet words of promises???

Tawar hati and that's it?? Geez,that's lame! At least, made up some good reasons. Pfft.

 And to think a break up would have done it....damn girl, i fucking hate u.

p/s ,

I wish u'll faced the same betrayal n deception for a damn lame reason from ur every guy u'll meet.

 If  ur own promises like pieces of shit, u are no different.
Adios.

trip to Merlion place :D

About a month ago,I had gone to Singapore with da familia.
Haha, I didnt have time nor mood to update earlier, with the pics at my bro's phone.
So...

Wooohoooo! I mean seriously it's fucking amazing there!

But of course, the currency of cash, from RM to Singapore dollar, kinda expensive.
So, here are some pics.

When we arrived there, first thing to visit are malls there.

this one, outside the mall...

....n inside the mall

Then, we go to place, which my bro n i called, the Three Towers.Yeah, we dont know its exact name. :P

Well, these three towers is 'holding' a great 'rooftop' which is the Skypark. XD

Inside the 'Three Towers'..

And this is the Skypark!

Yeah, Tok Ajah n achik and the family came along :D

Now, these pics,i forgot what place are these =.=''

Long story short, we went to the helluva FUN spot, the USS!!

Universal Studio Singapore. But we didnt took much pics, almost none, inside the USS coz all of us were busy having fun n no one taking any pics.Hahaha..

Well, got to say, Singapore caught my attention. Most important thing, the girls there, are damn gorgeous, man! XD haha

( and people mostly iphone users, even the cab drivers =.='' i wanna an iphone!)

I Hate.

hey,peeps

it's kinda bad mood now..

but just..hear out the story..

I had a chat with my good fren,my twinny, Tasha.

I realized how much she loves her ex.

And that keeps me thinking. It's all make senses.

On what happened to Sara.

Or between me n fika long ago.

And the one I had been crazy on...which it really hurts.

I realized that everything is useless.

The waiting, the praying for an opened heart, the hope for being together...

it just...hopeless. Remain as a hope, not real.

Yeah, I should get over with...but hell yeah, easier said than done.

This girl gonna wait for her ex and repeatedly believes that he is her Mr. Right.

I didn't stand a chance to win her.

I mean, why the hell I fall in love with her in the first place?

Why the hell I keep on waiting for her?

Why the hell I still thinking about her?
Why the hell I pray for her everyday?!

Why the hell am i praying?! oh gosh, i wasn't suppose to say that....

..Oh, WHAT THE HELL! the world hates me!

nothing good come out from me being good!

I fucking hate this!

Sara n Aimi are happy with their lovelife, okay, nice.

Fika and her boyfren are still together, good for them.

my long lost ex, Ema engaged already?? WOW, that's great!

My brother get another damn cute hot girl for a scandal, fantastic!

A guy, who had been sicken me, just had a relationship with one of my pretty fren? that's just amazing!

And SHE never cares bout me anymore, assumed me as the same like the other guys that drove her nuts. Oh,that's just the best!

What is it, 'LIFE'? wanna make me jealous?

Oh, 'thank you' so much!

the point is,

Everybody else winning and I'm the one who left behind.

Life hates me.

Yeah, maybe u guys, readers (if there's any), assume that it's not wise for me to say all these,

I'm being ungrateful brat or what-fucking-ever,

I'll tell u what, try to be in my shoes.

Long story short, from rebellious outlaw to goody boy,

turn out to be nothing at all?

Yeah, it sucks.

#i'm gonna get my cigarettes.

About Her

Hey there,

Just wanna share something out.

It's something had to do with the previous posts before this one.

Yeah, it's about her. The one I had crush on. The one I'm in love with.

The last news about me and her, pretty seemed I failed.

Yeah, totally.

But here's something I wanna share what I saw in a girl who, for me,

is perfect.

The 'Ice-Cream Meeting'.

I posted about this scene before.

It's when I'm out of the campus, buy some things and wait for the cab to go back.

Then I met a friend there, also waiting for a cab, with her.

That friend had an ice-cream but I had no idea it was hers at that time.

I just had that ice-cream right before I was told it was hers.

Then I turned my head and looked at her.

It feels like the time stopped.

An angel is in front of me.

That sweet face which a lot I could tell but couldn't put it in words.

Her voice, is like love songs to my ears.

Her smiles, the sweetest one ever.

And her eyes are the thing I like the most.

One stared at her eyes, it felt like there no one else in the world except her.

She gave out a sight that struck deep to my heart.

And that's the when I know that I'm in the first-sighted love with her.

Her face was in my mind all the time but I went on my days at the campus as usual.

Then, a miracle happened. I was at the foodcourt when I heard somebody called my name.

Another 'love song' to my ears.

I turned, and again, the time stopped.

That face and those eyes. Even me myself couldn't describe how I felt back then.

She talked to me and carved a smile on my face.

Then, there is one night. A night with simple, short but sweet moments.

I just finished my class and walk by Pusat Pelajar.

Kinda sleepy though, that class I've been to.

But my eyes are wide opened when I saw her again.

She was practicing her, well I'm not sure, a poet or something.

Haha, I couldn't focus! I just can't help myself with an angel around, could I?

I accompanied her for while, with some of her friends of course.

Then, my friends asked me to walk back together but I told them to go ahead first.

Yeah, I wanted to walk with her on our way back. Succeed.

But I like our short conversation at that time right before we went back.

It goes something like this;

" El, nape tak balik lagi? "

" Saja nak lepak sini kejap."

" Eleh, cakap jela kau tunggu aku~ "

" Hahaha! Camne boleh kantoi ni?? " :P

And we laughed. That's the sweetest conversation I ever had with her.

I mean, it might be a mere joke to her but I took it as a precious moment.

And I saw her sweet smile which remain in my mind til now.

Continue,

Then we walked downhill together. I must say, it was another moment to be remember by.

I took a quick stare to the sky. The stars are delightful and pretty, as she was and is, til now.

As I said I couldn't help myself around her, I sang her a song.

Hahaha, I know, it was crazy, right?

I thought Angela, my first crush in this campus, was the only one who could made me crazy over a girl. And it was a long time ago.

But this one, she made me even crazier. Never crossed my mind to sing a song heartfully to Angela or other girls and I never did.....til I met this one and I actually did.

Good days went by, everything somehow doing great until I heard something that's not very cool about her. It wasn't too awful and neither bad to begin with.

I had predicted something about her, which I'm afraid if it's true, and I really wished that I was wrong. But, I was right.

Well, I don't want to splash out about it here. Kinda hurts though, even just reminding it. Read my older posts if u wanna know about it.

Same goes to what happened between us not long after this one. Read my older posts.

I dunno what to say, what condition I am in right now.

Happy? Sad? Feel nothing?

The thing is I'm not totally give up as I'm still into her. But I didn't put any hope, didn't expect anything from her also.

I just watching her from afar, look at her when she's not looking.

Before, I could stare at her eyes closely til she asked me to stop looking her like that.

Now, barely our eyes meet. I just smile alone when I see her, savoring the sight of a beautiful God's creation.

Every time I wanna talk to her, my body shivers.

Well, after all that happened, she didn't responded as she used to.

I just said to myself, " I'm so stupid! "

It seems that I'm not meant for her. I usually think I only have choices like to swallow your emotion or throw it at other people's faces...

...but it seems like there is the third option,

just let it go.

Well, at least she seems so fine to me, live on her life happily.

That's good enough, i guess.

I regretted for confessed to her, if not, it wouldn't be like this but one thing for sure, I never regret to fall in love with her.

When I look the stars, it remind about you. Beautiful but far away to reach.

tales of serenade: boys,girls and their EXes

Hi peeps.

Just wanna share something that I had in mind.

I just 'failed' in a love story a few days ago.

Plus, the situations that i experienced during I live.

Also heard my friends' story,

And this what i can conclude.

Girls - hardly to forget their EXes. Hard to forget, i mean it. Really hard

Boys - i guess, easier to forget their Exes than girls. On top of that, they ( and me ) search other for replacements.

Of course, these conclusion didn't point towards ALL the people.Most of it, i guess.

Well, here's the question,

What if both of these gender with the attitude as stated, meet each other?

the answer. Ouch. For boys.

You can sort out what i meant, right?

A boy that searching for replacement, fall for a girl that can't forget her ex.

That girl reject him just because she can't forget the one who had made her happy before.

The girl may demand the same happiness from the same guy.

Maybe if that boy doesn't give up, will win her heart.

But what if her ex contact her back? asking how is she doing?

WANTING HER BACK?

It's really tough, i know. I've been through it.

I'm not posting this to tell the solution of this very problem.

And i believe the solution is depend on ourselves. Nobody's fault on this occasion.

But who is evil or good, i don't know. Whether he or she or ex, i don't know

Well, perhaps this is something to think about.

Well, think about it. Adios

26 Feb.

haha...ouch. :'(

this is what happened today.

SMS between me and her.

It was most likely, go like this ;

' i'll wait '

' Jgn wait el. I xnk bg hrapan. I just nak kwn je suma org'

'k....'

'U mara i ke?'

'eh, xde la. Cinta xleh paksa kan kan kan? '

Well,it was not exactly like that but most likely. ( what the hell am i talking =.='')

Anyway, the point was there. Fail. For me.

Haha, tgk la post yg before this, punya la semangat mcm bagai2. Dh la bru post semlm. (td ter-delete pastu repost balik)

Skrg kena hentak terus dgn kenyataan. Hahahaha.... (i'm not happy, really)

Tapi xpela, bukan salah dia. Salah aku jugak. And she got the rights to do as such.

I just can stare my phone speechlessly, walked my way to the blok, continue finishing the banner. Alone.

Now, i'm in my room. My heart is crying out loud. I guess it's fine as long i didnt shed my tears.

I'm holding a guitar, playing the same song i presented to her.

and guess what?

Teardrops on my guitar.

one that made me go on

Tu, baca title tu. (okay...i need to get new intro =.='')

Ni based on previous new post. Yup, pasal si dia tu la.

weeeeeeeeee~~~

Okay, kat post tu, aku nampak mcm down je kan.

Well, ni la sikap aku, cepat benor give up nyer ha.

Dapat tau pompuan tu gitu, give up. Dapat tau pompuan tu gini, give up.

Tapi kalo dah terok sgt gurl tu, mmg aku pun choww trus.

Tapi si dia ni tak terok mana malah bagi aku x terok.

Before this, aku mungkin give up sebab pe yg kwn aku ckpkan tu.

But one day, an event somehow triggered me.

Aku dok meroyan, merajok dgn pe yg aku dgr.

Smpaikan kwn aku pun naik menyampah dgn aku. Tapi come on la, member dh down kan, tolong la up kan balik iye pun =.=''

Tapi that was not the case.

The point is aku sedar yang aku xleh rely member 101%.

And somehow aku dpt rasakan yg kwn aku tu changed a bit. So, aku sedar org boleh brubah kan.

2 things on my mind at that time ;

1st, when it comes to love, don't follow exactly as others say. Trust urself.

2nd, people changed. So can her.

Well, actually aku nak buktikan yang dia x seteruk mcm org lain pndang. If betul pun, she could change. Maybe she needs a somebody or something to occur in order to be that way.

And kwn aku de jugak ckp " Kalau nak sgt dia, try la menang hati dia."

Chinnnnnnnggg!! (mata bersinar)

that's what i'm gonna do.

For now, aku mula mendekatkan lagi jurang antara aku dgn si dia ni.

And maybe expose sedikit demi sedikit perasaan aku terhadap dia. ( and aku rasa dia dah prasan dah kot =.='' )

Tapi kalo nak ikot diri aku yang dulu, mmg ble aku dh expose feelings aku, gurls x respon mcm pe yg aku nak, aku give up terus. Macam agak memaksa gak la.

Tapi sekarang x. Mmg byk kali aku down.

Msj x berbalas la, kadang2 ni respon la. But it's okay.

I keep on trust myself and gonna win her heart.

Bila dah syg, camni la jadi nyer XP

Everytime, aku solat, lpas solat aku berdoa.

"Ya Tuhan, bukakanlah hati '(nama dia)' untuk diriku"

aku ulang 3 kali.

(sori la, selagi aku x dpt dia, aku xnk mention sape dia XP )

This is the 1st time aku mmg gler2 berusaha untuk pompuan ni.

Sampaikan aku main gitar n nyanyi lagu 'kau ilhamku' kat dia.

Seblum de jugak gler2, tapi x penah sampai tahap camni.

Kalo dulu, situasi camni dh lama dh aku give up.

Takpe, aku ikhlas menanti.

Go, eL, Go!

Just seeing her eyes make me happy.

She's my happiness :)

'Kau ilhamku', T

the one who made me crazy

1st of all...

pffttt! berhabuk blog aku ni,dh lama tak updated.(Ala,kalo updated pun bukan de yang nk baca pun) :P

Nak kata idea xde,belambak sebenarnya.Kalau luahan expressi,lagi la.

Masa?mungkin kot.Aku nak main game,so xde masa la kan XPP

Hahaha,okay,im getting so OOT (Out Of Topic). XD

Back to the point!

Cam biasa la,awal2 post blog aku seblum2 ni,aku mesti suruh tgk title tu kan.

Ha,skrg tgk title tu.Dah boleh agak dah genre apa kisah kali ni, (eleh,mmg mostly post2 aku genre yg sma powwnnnn ) :P

Nak dijadikan cerita,aku mula kenal sorang gurl ni.

Descriptions?

Cun,ayu,sweet,friendly,menawan,cantik,menarik,tertarik,kau memang dabomb.

The 1st time aku jumpa dia face-to-face kat luar.Dia tgh tggu teksi dgn mmbr2 dia.

Aku rapat dgn mmbr dia n at that time mmbr dia tgh ngap aiskrim.Aku pun nk la ngap jgak aiskrim tu.Then mmbr dia ckp aiskrim tu dia yg punyer.

Aku toleh ke arah dia-mcm masa terhenti seyh!Agak terkesima jugak la tgk awek cun gitu la kan :P

Dgn muka x malu nyer,aku mintak la nk skit aiskrim tu (walaupun dh ngap sekali),then dia kasi.Time tu hati aku mmg berbunga2,rapat dgn org cenggitu la kan :P

Okay,tu cuma part pada mula nya aku kenal dia.But the thing is aku x tau nama dia =.='''

Okay,move on to next chapter,

start drpd 'pertemuan aiskrim' aritu,everytime kami bertembung,dia x pnah miss nak tgur aku.Pewwiiiiitttt! bahagia tahap gaban aku!

Aku pun mula datang kt dia,duduk semeja kt foodcourt,berbual2.

Aku mmg suka giler tgk muka dia,srius!

Cair~~~~~

Pastu,nmpk la jgak bertambah la sedikit rapat kitorang ni.And aku pun dh tau nama dia,hehehe.

Aku dgr org dok pnggil nama dia,tu yg aku tau tu :P

Nama dia Tttttttt.....oppsss,sori,aku xnak kecoh kt sini.

(what the hell are you doing,eL? =.='')

Kay,sambung! Aku pun kalo jumpe dia tgh berjalan ke,aku teman skali jln.Dia tgh lepak2 ke,aku join skali berbual.

One day,aku rasa mcm hepi semacam dgn dia.

Okay la,fine!aku tipu!aku dah jatuh hati kat dia sejak 'pertemuan aiskrim' aritu :P love at the first sight la kot.(bukan 1st love...1st sight,jgn keliru tu =.='')

Cara pandangan dia terhadap aku mmg sangat berbeza dgn org lain.

Somehow aku rasa sgt di-appreciated.Macam aku de harapan dgn dia.

Happy ya amat sangat

Wajah dia sentiasa dlm kepala aku.

Setiap hari aku semangat nak gi kelas dgn harapan utk bertembung dgn dia kat mana2.

(Yela,dia kos lain =.=')

Sampaikan dlm kelas chemist pun aku boleh nampak gambar dia kat slideshow tu.Err...sori Dr. Yiu...

Bila tiba waktu mkn kt foodcourt atau kt kk2,ada je kepala aku nak toleh kiri kanan,nak cari dia kt ctu ke tak.

Bila lepak dengan dia,aku suka stare muka dia.Sampai kantoi pun de gak =.='''

Hinggakan aku termimpikan dia kottt (tapi sumpah bukan mimpi basah)

Okay,aku angau bha :P

Tapi cam biasa la,setiap cerita de masalah nyer.Bila aku ceritakan ttg dia kt kwn rapat aku,mula la timbul mcm2 problem.

Kwn aku ckp yg dia ni jnis 'complicated'.

Ramai giler yg minat dia selain aku.

Kwn aku pun ada ckp gak yg dia ni mmg pandang kebaikan kt suma org

....n dia ni jiran kwn aku tu.

Okay,ouch.

Tapi tu la,bila dh dgr suma bnda2 cmni,like everything makes sense.

Dia mmg rapat dgn sorg laki ni. ( aku pun de nmpk wallpaper gmbr dia kt henfon mamat tu )

yeah ,sadly :(

Maybe dia layan suma org sama,mungkin cara pandangan dia kt org lain sama dgn aku.Mungkin aku xde harapan langsung dgn dia.

Hmmmmmmm,mula la aku nk syak mcm2.

Ntah la,samada aku salah sangka ke,betul sangka ke,aku mmg dh blank.

Bukan dia je yg complicated,kepala hotak aku pun dh complicated.

Kalo nak confess,i'm afraid that things will be awkward between us.

Aku just dpt diam je,membawa hati yg luruh ni.

Dalam diam2 aku ni,masa still berjalan.Dalam masa yg berjalan tu,aku rindu ya amat sgt kt dia.Wajah dia terngiang-ngiang kt kepala hotak aku.Aku just....sedih.

Aku hanya mampu berdoa setiap hari supaya terbuka hati dia utk aku.

Kalo org lain mmg sng ckp,byk lg perempuan kt luar tu tapi mmg payah utk jumpa perempuan mcm dia ni,yang bagi aku,mmg perfect.

:'(

oh please...Get on with it la,hater!

Oi there,

-kali ni aku nk tujukan kat sorang hater ni.

Dia pernah baca blog ni,so insyaAllah dia akan baca lagi.

Wei,c'mon la!tak puas hati pe lagi.
Kau dah dapat dia,dia nak kat kau,sudah la.

Nak menyalahkan orang lain menjahanamkan hubungan kau pahal.

Kau cakap je aku budak hingusan,padahal kau lagi teruk.

(macam aku kisah kau senior aku ke,lagi tua ke..fuck off)

Kau ingat aku nak sangat ke pompuan tu sekarang?

Wei,dia bukan pompuan terakhir la kat muka bumi ni.

Belambak lagi yang lebih bagus.

Dia nak kat kau,accept la.Yang kau nak menyalahkan orang lain pahal?

Wei,masa berlalu,aku dah tak berharap kat dia sorang dah pun.Serupa stranger je pun sekarang.

So,takyah nak gelabah sangat eh?

Bersyukur la dah de orang nak.

Takyah nak bajet bagus,bercakap macam dah hebat habis,call sana sini.

Aku dah lupakan dia la wei.Macam la aku kisah pe yang berlaku antara korang.

Apa yang berlaku kat korang,aku buat tak tau je pun.

Takyah nak benci sangat pastu tunjuk kuat,tunjuk matang.

Aku pun dah ada orang lain sekarang.

Takde masa aku nak jilat balik bila dah kena ludah.

Lagipun,korang nyer hal ni bukan besar mana pun untuk aku jahanamkan pun.
Banyak benda lain lagi best untuk aku jahanamkan.
Buang masa hidup aku je nak jahanamkan perkara remeh macam hubungan korang ni.Membosankan.
Kalau dia de masalah dengan kau,antara kau dengan dia jela.

Jangan teruk sangat ego tu,nanti makan diri.
Kau nak malukan aku kat laman sosial tu?
Aku de lagi banyak benda boleh pecahkan pasal kau.
"Kau igt lagi fb lama kau?"
Takpela beb,aku taknak go on pasal benda ni sebab aku bukan jenis yang suka malukan orang lain macam kau.
Aku just nak cakap sekarang yang aku dah takde pape perasaan dengan dia.

Perasaan minat = kosong.
Kau takyah la susah payah nak benci aku,nak malukan aku.
Jangan fikir benda-benda camni aku tak boleh balas.
Malas nak besar-besarkan benda ni sampai jadi isu besar.
Aku post benda ni sebab aku dah naik meyampah.Sori aku mencarut,tu memang sikap aku.
Aku dah ada hidup baru la wei.
So,please la,get on with it and go on la dengan awek kesayangan kau tu.
Like I fucking care.

p/s, ex kau dengan aku dah malas nak amik kisah pasal kau.

Kat dunia ni bukan pasal kau dengan dia je.

So,cuci berak sendiri sebelum komplen pasal taik orang lain.

Just get the fuck out, N .

wish i have Amnesia...

"Sape darling kau tu?"

"Kau la darling aku!"

'punching bag' (ouch)

"i memang utk u cubit,belasah pun"

KK2

Biology class

<3

Wanna forget but can't.

Love so much,it hurts.

Wish i have Amnesia.