I Hate.

hey,peeps

it's kinda bad mood now..

but just..hear out the story..

I had a chat with my good fren,my twinny, Tasha.

I realized how much she loves her ex.

And that keeps me thinking. It's all make senses.

On what happened to Sara.

Or between me n fika long ago.

And the one I had been crazy on...which it really hurts.

I realized that everything is useless.

The waiting, the praying for an opened heart, the hope for being together...

it just...hopeless. Remain as a hope, not real.

Yeah, I should get over with...but hell yeah, easier said than done.

This girl gonna wait for her ex and repeatedly believes that he is her Mr. Right.

I didn't stand a chance to win her.

I mean, why the hell I fall in love with her in the first place?

Why the hell I keep on waiting for her?

Why the hell I still thinking about her?
Why the hell I pray for her everyday?!

Why the hell am i praying?! oh gosh, i wasn't suppose to say that....

..Oh, WHAT THE HELL! the world hates me!

nothing good come out from me being good!

I fucking hate this!

Sara n Aimi are happy with their lovelife, okay, nice.

Fika and her boyfren are still together, good for them.

my long lost ex, Ema engaged already?? WOW, that's great!

My brother get another damn cute hot girl for a scandal, fantastic!

A guy, who had been sicken me, just had a relationship with one of my pretty fren? that's just amazing!

And SHE never cares bout me anymore, assumed me as the same like the other guys that drove her nuts. Oh,that's just the best!

What is it, 'LIFE'? wanna make me jealous?

Oh, 'thank you' so much!

the point is,

Everybody else winning and I'm the one who left behind.

Life hates me.

Yeah, maybe u guys, readers (if there's any), assume that it's not wise for me to say all these,

I'm being ungrateful brat or what-fucking-ever,

I'll tell u what, try to be in my shoes.

Long story short, from rebellious outlaw to goody boy,

turn out to be nothing at all?

Yeah, it sucks.

#i'm gonna get my cigarettes.