inside and outside and both

They say don't judge the book by it's cover.

It's inside that important. Including choosing your lovemate.

Here's my story.

My friend onced told me about people that want their mate to be a good on the outside,the appearance.

It went something like this,

'Kalau kamu nak awek/pakwe cantik/hensem, kamu boleh gerenti ke dia akan still cantik/hensem pada esok hari? Kalau dah accident ke jadi pape, muka dia dah buruk, kalau kamu ni jenis yang pandang rupa, kamu nak kat dia lagi? Silap haribulan kamu yang tinggalkan dia."

Well, 

I was captivated by one's beauty

But of course, i didn't put a high hope towards her at first.

I called and talked.

But when the days went by, somehow my feeling towards her grow...til now.

We've never met, still i don't know what happened to me.

I didn't attracted to other girls.

Longing to hear her voice, like, everytime of everyday.

Felt like the world is mine when she said 'i miss u too'.

Stalking her fb page, envy with some comments.

Haha, who could ever guess i would fall for someone who i'd never met.

Yeah, it just like Euro Trip movie. pfft.

There was a moment, her friend, which also a friend of mine, told me.

' Nanti kalau kau jumpe dia depan2, dia biasa2 je.'

He talked about her looks.

Then i said,

' kalau dia accident, muka dia dah buruk sekali pun, aku tetap nak teman dia kat hospital tu, teman dia sampai bila-bila.'

Okay, i know that's some kind of a longshot but it just came out from my mouth.

From my heart.

Everyday, i'm expecting to hear her voice.

Feel somehow disappointing when i didn't but i'll stay strong.

I'll have faith. I'll pray to be hers.

I'm not fully attracted to her beauty. I just feel happy how she made my day everytime i talk with her, without she knowing it that she did.

Oh God, i wish i could tell her how i feel.

I wish i could tell how much i miss her,

tell her how much i love her.

p/s, currently in love with SN