inside and outside and both

They say don't judge the book by it's cover.

It's inside that important. Including choosing your lovemate.

Here's my story.

My friend onced told me about people that want their mate to be a good on the outside,the appearance.

It went something like this,

'Kalau kamu nak awek/pakwe cantik/hensem, kamu boleh gerenti ke dia akan still cantik/hensem pada esok hari? Kalau dah accident ke jadi pape, muka dia dah buruk, kalau kamu ni jenis yang pandang rupa, kamu nak kat dia lagi? Silap haribulan kamu yang tinggalkan dia."

Well, 

I was captivated by one's beauty

But of course, i didn't put a high hope towards her at first.

I called and talked.

But when the days went by, somehow my feeling towards her grow...til now.

We've never met, still i don't know what happened to me.

I didn't attracted to other girls.

Longing to hear her voice, like, everytime of everyday.

Felt like the world is mine when she said 'i miss u too'.

Stalking her fb page, envy with some comments.

Haha, who could ever guess i would fall for someone who i'd never met.

Yeah, it just like Euro Trip movie. pfft.

There was a moment, her friend, which also a friend of mine, told me.

' Nanti kalau kau jumpe dia depan2, dia biasa2 je.'

He talked about her looks.

Then i said,

' kalau dia accident, muka dia dah buruk sekali pun, aku tetap nak teman dia kat hospital tu, teman dia sampai bila-bila.'

Okay, i know that's some kind of a longshot but it just came out from my mouth.

From my heart.

Everyday, i'm expecting to hear her voice.

Feel somehow disappointing when i didn't but i'll stay strong.

I'll have faith. I'll pray to be hers.

I'm not fully attracted to her beauty. I just feel happy how she made my day everytime i talk with her, without she knowing it that she did.

Oh God, i wish i could tell her how i feel.

I wish i could tell how much i miss her,

tell her how much i love her.

p/s, currently in love with SN

Catalyst

Woohoo,it's been a long time,yeah.
Got a lot stories to tell but since currently i'm bintulu,so the internet connection is kinda sucks here.

 But one story could made it this time. ( what the heck am i saying =.='' )

So, where to start?

Oh yeah, those who know and knew me better, i'm kinda live a life like Ted Mosby's.

Searching for the 'one'.

Who's Ted Mosby? Go watch 'How I Met Your Mother'.

And at my campus, there's a big whole of a batch of juniors came in.

Some of them did caught my attention. And now?

Well, i do had attention towards a girl but she's not a student here.

Yeah, at the peninsular.

I knew her at facebook. I know, it's kinda not a good thing to have a crush on someone by the internet.

But after knew her for a while, I could say she made my day everyday.

She is a friend of my junior and somehow he introduced me to her.

Then, we talked over the phone, bla bla bla~

And i sensed something great.

Something great 'til i had the spirit to study for my Fish Disease test that i'll face for the next day.

EL STUDY??? yeah, i couldn't believe myself  eitherXD

I know when i typed this, some would say that i study over a girl doesn't make any sense.

But in reality, that's me, haha :P

  And guess what? I got a second place for the test! Almost beat the first though.

 I'm not gonna boast here. Everyone could pass with flying colours.

But I'm the least expected person to pass this test...or any test at all =.=''

I mean,seriously.

We're not in being together or in a relationship....yet XP

Anyhow, what i'm saying here is she's my catalyst.

And her is Sarah Nell.

( I dont know what 'Nell' stands for )

Oh God, I miss her voice. XD

I was there

" The back of my head felt warm. A warmth that made me opened my eyes. I smiled.
I saw your face staring at mine. With that sweet eyes of yours, I felt like I'm in my world.
 I laid on your lap, sharing earphones, listening to love songs, together.
 My hand reached for yours, brought it to my lips as I didn't wanna let it go.
My mouth mumbled, saying those three words. You replied. My heart trembled with joy.
Only God knows how much I missed those words to come out from your mouth.
 But reality hurts. My eyes opened for the second time and there, I was alone.
 Not before long, a scene that about the same with the one from my sleep, took place.
Only this time, I was the witness.
Watched from afar, stood still, speechless.
 I already knew it from the moment I woke up. I knew that sweet dreams aren't sweet at all.
I knew it all along 'cause I was there. All the time. "