The Life of Acting

pfft! look at the the title,

Don't get me wrong,i am not a celebrity actor(or whatever they call it).

Although i'm in the drama club =.=''

But that's not the point.

The point is i had been 'acting' recently.

Or something like that.

A lot.

Probably you heard that i had smile but hurt inside,bla bla bla...

well,that could considered ACT ,right?

We not being ourselves and show it to others.That's 'stage-performing'.

Then we go back into our room and feel depressed like hell.And that's 'backstage'.

Ask ourselves,what are the motives of act?

To satisfy people,to please people,to LIE people.

Whether it's for our own good or not,

it is ACT.

The world is a stage,the life is the plot and i am the actor.

After the troubles,the dipshits i faced,i have to act.

To satisy people,of course.

I know,there goes some saying like this,

"If u can't satisfy yourselves,how can u satisfy others?"

Unfortunately,i can.And it happen.Everyday,after a pile of dipshit troubles hit on me.

Even the day i typing this.

People seems to be happy (or feel nothing).

Even i'm not...but no one care it.No one give a shit.

I am a LOSER after all,i admit it.

I'm not good at anything.Useless,hopeless.

Haha,don't worry,this post isn't for asking sympathies or whatever.

Anyone who feeling annoying already,feel free to block this address and get lost.

I'm just saying the reality.

Friends,love,achievements,

nothing seems to be right.

Yeah,kinda give up but still goes on.

Well,whatever happened,

like it or not,i really hope for some encouragement,some miracles.

But i wont ask for it,i wont begging for it.

I just act around and live on.

Even though i 'cursed' some people and expect them to suffer or simply,dead,

but like i said,no one ever give shit about it.(It would be better if it is really happen though :P )

Trust me,i hate this but it is the only option left.

meaningless life.