tales of serenade: boys,girls and their EXes

Hi peeps.

Just wanna share something that I had in mind.

I just 'failed' in a love story a few days ago.

Plus, the situations that i experienced during I live.

Also heard my friends' story,

And this what i can conclude.

Girls - hardly to forget their EXes. Hard to forget, i mean it. Really hard

Boys - i guess, easier to forget their Exes than girls. On top of that, they ( and me ) search other for replacements.

Of course, these conclusion didn't point towards ALL the people.Most of it, i guess.

Well, here's the question,

What if both of these gender with the attitude as stated, meet each other?

the answer. Ouch. For boys.

You can sort out what i meant, right?

A boy that searching for replacement, fall for a girl that can't forget her ex.

That girl reject him just because she can't forget the one who had made her happy before.

The girl may demand the same happiness from the same guy.

Maybe if that boy doesn't give up, will win her heart.

But what if her ex contact her back? asking how is she doing?

WANTING HER BACK?

It's really tough, i know. I've been through it.

I'm not posting this to tell the solution of this very problem.

And i believe the solution is depend on ourselves. Nobody's fault on this occasion.

But who is evil or good, i don't know. Whether he or she or ex, i don't know

Well, perhaps this is something to think about.

Well, think about it. Adios

26 Feb.

haha...ouch. :'(

this is what happened today.

SMS between me and her.

It was most likely, go like this ;

' i'll wait '

' Jgn wait el. I xnk bg hrapan. I just nak kwn je suma org'

'k....'

'U mara i ke?'

'eh, xde la. Cinta xleh paksa kan kan kan? '

Well,it was not exactly like that but most likely. ( what the hell am i talking =.='')

Anyway, the point was there. Fail. For me.

Haha, tgk la post yg before this, punya la semangat mcm bagai2. Dh la bru post semlm. (td ter-delete pastu repost balik)

Skrg kena hentak terus dgn kenyataan. Hahahaha.... (i'm not happy, really)

Tapi xpela, bukan salah dia. Salah aku jugak. And she got the rights to do as such.

I just can stare my phone speechlessly, walked my way to the blok, continue finishing the banner. Alone.

Now, i'm in my room. My heart is crying out loud. I guess it's fine as long i didnt shed my tears.

I'm holding a guitar, playing the same song i presented to her.

and guess what?

Teardrops on my guitar.

one that made me go on

Tu, baca title tu. (okay...i need to get new intro =.='')

Ni based on previous new post. Yup, pasal si dia tu la.

weeeeeeeeee~~~

Okay, kat post tu, aku nampak mcm down je kan.

Well, ni la sikap aku, cepat benor give up nyer ha.

Dapat tau pompuan tu gitu, give up. Dapat tau pompuan tu gini, give up.

Tapi kalo dah terok sgt gurl tu, mmg aku pun choww trus.

Tapi si dia ni tak terok mana malah bagi aku x terok.

Before this, aku mungkin give up sebab pe yg kwn aku ckpkan tu.

But one day, an event somehow triggered me.

Aku dok meroyan, merajok dgn pe yg aku dgr.

Smpaikan kwn aku pun naik menyampah dgn aku. Tapi come on la, member dh down kan, tolong la up kan balik iye pun =.=''

Tapi that was not the case.

The point is aku sedar yang aku xleh rely member 101%.

And somehow aku dpt rasakan yg kwn aku tu changed a bit. So, aku sedar org boleh brubah kan.

2 things on my mind at that time ;

1st, when it comes to love, don't follow exactly as others say. Trust urself.

2nd, people changed. So can her.

Well, actually aku nak buktikan yang dia x seteruk mcm org lain pndang. If betul pun, she could change. Maybe she needs a somebody or something to occur in order to be that way.

And kwn aku de jugak ckp " Kalau nak sgt dia, try la menang hati dia."

Chinnnnnnnggg!! (mata bersinar)

that's what i'm gonna do.

For now, aku mula mendekatkan lagi jurang antara aku dgn si dia ni.

And maybe expose sedikit demi sedikit perasaan aku terhadap dia. ( and aku rasa dia dah prasan dah kot =.='' )

Tapi kalo nak ikot diri aku yang dulu, mmg ble aku dh expose feelings aku, gurls x respon mcm pe yg aku nak, aku give up terus. Macam agak memaksa gak la.

Tapi sekarang x. Mmg byk kali aku down.

Msj x berbalas la, kadang2 ni respon la. But it's okay.

I keep on trust myself and gonna win her heart.

Bila dah syg, camni la jadi nyer XP

Everytime, aku solat, lpas solat aku berdoa.

"Ya Tuhan, bukakanlah hati '(nama dia)' untuk diriku"

aku ulang 3 kali.

(sori la, selagi aku x dpt dia, aku xnk mention sape dia XP )

This is the 1st time aku mmg gler2 berusaha untuk pompuan ni.

Sampaikan aku main gitar n nyanyi lagu 'kau ilhamku' kat dia.

Seblum de jugak gler2, tapi x penah sampai tahap camni.

Kalo dulu, situasi camni dh lama dh aku give up.

Takpe, aku ikhlas menanti.

Go, eL, Go!

Just seeing her eyes make me happy.

She's my happiness :)

'Kau ilhamku', T

the one who made me crazy

1st of all...

pffttt! berhabuk blog aku ni,dh lama tak updated.(Ala,kalo updated pun bukan de yang nk baca pun) :P

Nak kata idea xde,belambak sebenarnya.Kalau luahan expressi,lagi la.

Masa?mungkin kot.Aku nak main game,so xde masa la kan XPP

Hahaha,okay,im getting so OOT (Out Of Topic). XD

Back to the point!

Cam biasa la,awal2 post blog aku seblum2 ni,aku mesti suruh tgk title tu kan.

Ha,skrg tgk title tu.Dah boleh agak dah genre apa kisah kali ni, (eleh,mmg mostly post2 aku genre yg sma powwnnnn ) :P

Nak dijadikan cerita,aku mula kenal sorang gurl ni.

Descriptions?

Cun,ayu,sweet,friendly,menawan,cantik,menarik,tertarik,kau memang dabomb.

The 1st time aku jumpa dia face-to-face kat luar.Dia tgh tggu teksi dgn mmbr2 dia.

Aku rapat dgn mmbr dia n at that time mmbr dia tgh ngap aiskrim.Aku pun nk la ngap jgak aiskrim tu.Then mmbr dia ckp aiskrim tu dia yg punyer.

Aku toleh ke arah dia-mcm masa terhenti seyh!Agak terkesima jugak la tgk awek cun gitu la kan :P

Dgn muka x malu nyer,aku mintak la nk skit aiskrim tu (walaupun dh ngap sekali),then dia kasi.Time tu hati aku mmg berbunga2,rapat dgn org cenggitu la kan :P

Okay,tu cuma part pada mula nya aku kenal dia.But the thing is aku x tau nama dia =.='''

Okay,move on to next chapter,

start drpd 'pertemuan aiskrim' aritu,everytime kami bertembung,dia x pnah miss nak tgur aku.Pewwiiiiitttt! bahagia tahap gaban aku!

Aku pun mula datang kt dia,duduk semeja kt foodcourt,berbual2.

Aku mmg suka giler tgk muka dia,srius!

Cair~~~~~

Pastu,nmpk la jgak bertambah la sedikit rapat kitorang ni.And aku pun dh tau nama dia,hehehe.

Aku dgr org dok pnggil nama dia,tu yg aku tau tu :P

Nama dia Tttttttt.....oppsss,sori,aku xnak kecoh kt sini.

(what the hell are you doing,eL? =.='')

Kay,sambung! Aku pun kalo jumpe dia tgh berjalan ke,aku teman skali jln.Dia tgh lepak2 ke,aku join skali berbual.

One day,aku rasa mcm hepi semacam dgn dia.

Okay la,fine!aku tipu!aku dah jatuh hati kat dia sejak 'pertemuan aiskrim' aritu :P love at the first sight la kot.(bukan 1st love...1st sight,jgn keliru tu =.='')

Cara pandangan dia terhadap aku mmg sangat berbeza dgn org lain.

Somehow aku rasa sgt di-appreciated.Macam aku de harapan dgn dia.

Happy ya amat sangat

Wajah dia sentiasa dlm kepala aku.

Setiap hari aku semangat nak gi kelas dgn harapan utk bertembung dgn dia kat mana2.

(Yela,dia kos lain =.=')

Sampaikan dlm kelas chemist pun aku boleh nampak gambar dia kat slideshow tu.Err...sori Dr. Yiu...

Bila tiba waktu mkn kt foodcourt atau kt kk2,ada je kepala aku nak toleh kiri kanan,nak cari dia kt ctu ke tak.

Bila lepak dengan dia,aku suka stare muka dia.Sampai kantoi pun de gak =.='''

Hinggakan aku termimpikan dia kottt (tapi sumpah bukan mimpi basah)

Okay,aku angau bha :P

Tapi cam biasa la,setiap cerita de masalah nyer.Bila aku ceritakan ttg dia kt kwn rapat aku,mula la timbul mcm2 problem.

Kwn aku ckp yg dia ni jnis 'complicated'.

Ramai giler yg minat dia selain aku.

Kwn aku pun ada ckp gak yg dia ni mmg pandang kebaikan kt suma org

....n dia ni jiran kwn aku tu.

Okay,ouch.

Tapi tu la,bila dh dgr suma bnda2 cmni,like everything makes sense.

Dia mmg rapat dgn sorg laki ni. ( aku pun de nmpk wallpaper gmbr dia kt henfon mamat tu )

yeah ,sadly :(

Maybe dia layan suma org sama,mungkin cara pandangan dia kt org lain sama dgn aku.Mungkin aku xde harapan langsung dgn dia.

Hmmmmmmm,mula la aku nk syak mcm2.

Ntah la,samada aku salah sangka ke,betul sangka ke,aku mmg dh blank.

Bukan dia je yg complicated,kepala hotak aku pun dh complicated.

Kalo nak confess,i'm afraid that things will be awkward between us.

Aku just dpt diam je,membawa hati yg luruh ni.

Dalam diam2 aku ni,masa still berjalan.Dalam masa yg berjalan tu,aku rindu ya amat sgt kt dia.Wajah dia terngiang-ngiang kt kepala hotak aku.Aku just....sedih.

Aku hanya mampu berdoa setiap hari supaya terbuka hati dia utk aku.

Kalo org lain mmg sng ckp,byk lg perempuan kt luar tu tapi mmg payah utk jumpa perempuan mcm dia ni,yang bagi aku,mmg perfect.

:'(