Tuesday, January 17, 2012

oh please...Get on with it la,hater!

Oi there,
-kali ni aku nk tujukan kat sorang hater ni.
Dia pernah baca blog ni,so insyaAllah dia akan baca lagi.

Wei,c'mon la!tak puas hati pe lagi.
Kau dah dapat dia,dia nak kat kau,sudah la.
Nak menyalahkan orang lain menjahanamkan hubungan kau pahal.
Kau cakap je aku budak hingusan,padahal kau lagi teruk.
(macam aku kisah kau senior aku ke,lagi tua ke..fuck off)
Kau ingat aku nak sangat ke pompuan tu sekarang?
Wei,dia bukan pompuan terakhir la kat muka bumi ni.
Belambak lagi yang lebih bagus.
Dia nak kat kau,accept la.Yang kau nak menyalahkan orang lain pahal?
Wei,masa berlalu,aku dah tak berharap kat dia sorang dah pun.Serupa stranger je pun sekarang.
So,takyah nak gelabah sangat eh?
Bersyukur la dah de orang nak.
Takyah nak bajet bagus,bercakap macam dah hebat habis,call sana sini.
Aku dah lupakan dia la wei.Macam la aku kisah pe yang berlaku antara korang.
Apa yang berlaku kat korang,aku buat tak tau je pun.
Takyah nak benci sangat pastu tunjuk kuat,tunjuk matang.
Aku pun dah ada orang lain sekarang.
Takde masa aku nak jilat balik bila dah kena ludah.

Lagipun,korang nyer hal ni bukan besar mana pun untuk aku jahanamkan pun.
Banyak benda lain lagi best untuk aku jahanamkan.
Buang masa hidup aku je nak jahanamkan perkara remeh macam hubungan korang ni.Membosankan.
Kalau dia de masalah dengan kau,antara kau dengan dia jela.
Jangan teruk sangat ego tu,nanti makan diri.
Kau nak malukan aku kat laman sosial tu?
Aku de lagi banyak benda boleh pecahkan pasal kau.
"Kau igt lagi fb lama kau?"
Takpela beb,aku taknak go on pasal benda ni sebab aku bukan jenis yang suka malukan orang lain macam kau.
Aku just nak cakap sekarang yang aku dah takde pape perasaan dengan dia.
Perasaan minat = kosong.
Kau takyah la susah payah nak benci aku,nak malukan aku.
Jangan fikir benda-benda camni aku tak boleh balas.
Malas nak besar-besarkan benda ni sampai jadi isu besar.
Aku post benda ni sebab aku dah naik meyampah.Sori aku mencarut,tu memang sikap aku.
Aku dah ada hidup baru la wei.
So,please la,get on with it and go on la dengan awek kesayangan kau tu.
Like I fucking care.

p/s, ex kau dengan aku dah malas nak amik kisah pasal kau.
Kat dunia ni bukan pasal kau dengan dia je.
So,cuci berak sendiri sebelum komplen pasal taik orang lain.
Just get the fuck out, N .

Monday, January 9, 2012

wish i have Amnesia...

"Sape darling kau tu?"
"Kau la darling aku!"

'punching bag' (ouch)
"i memang utk u cubit,belasah pun"


KK2


Biology class


<3

Wanna forget but can't.
Love so much,it hurts.
Wish i have Amnesia.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

and she says 'FINE'

hey there....
well,within this new year of 2012,
complication of feelings happened though...
That girl,this girl...duhhhhhhh...
my heart being crushed to death.

I'll tell about that girl first,
well, a week before,thankfully i was able to be with her.
but the thing is i was not happy.
She somehow didn't appreciate me.
Like i didn't exist.
Blame for all the problem that occured.
and ended up,left me like a piece of garbage.

Next,this girl...
oh gosh,my feelings is twisting everytime i'm being with this one.
Happy,sad,angry,moody,blank,depress.
urghhhh...dammit...
but most of the time,it will end up miserable.
to tell the truth,i am much more fond to this girl than that girl.
Although i didn't quite show that's how i am (am i?)
Being with this girl is like playing with my hope.
Sometimes it's there,sometimes it's gone.
There was a day,she said i was on her list. I smiled.
But the way she treat me is like the other way around.
Then I somehow realize..
If i on her list,maybe that guy is too....or much worse,
I'm just on a piece of paper but he is in her heart.
She more likely to say 'fine' to me,by the way.
'Fine' in a tone of 'like i care'
She didn't hope for me like the way i did if she was like that,rite?
I onced asked her,
'Is there any hope for me?'
She didn't answer.
I accompanied her on the way back and willing to be a 'punching bag'
But that doesn't seem to affect anything.
i know there wasn't any hope for me.
I tired of lying myself,telling that there's still hope.
I'm blinded.Sadly blinded.

I don't know what to do next. I don't want to have any distance but i have my feelings too.
Avoiding,ignorance are what i had in mind..but seriously,
i'm fucking don't know what to do.

Tears are about to fall when typing this.
bye.