the 'whisperers' of me

...i was sitting on a bed,with chilly breeze the air-cond blew,while looking through the dusty window,towards the starless sky of the lonely night...

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'MYSELF' :

Apsal la idop aku kena terok camni...

'ANGEL SIDE' :

Sabar jela...Nanti timbul nyer seseorg utk ko...

'M':

tapi bila lagi...aku penat ar menunggu...

'DEVIL SIDE' :

Tu r.Kesian tgk ko dow...penat2 ko syg org,ko pulak x dihargai...camni la,pe kata ko ngorat blk ex2 ko sekali dgn awek2 baru,tapi kali ni,bukan one after another dah,tapi all at one time.Xpe r,kau boleh pilih mana yang sesuai n de back-up sekali.Yang lain tu,bia diorg rasa la pe yg ko rasa.Sakit ni ko xleh rasa sorg2...

'M':

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'A':

Weh,xyah la..ko kna igt pe yg mmbr baek ko ckp, 'biar kita disakiti,jgn skitkan org lain'...lgpun,ksian r kat diorg..mana la tau de yg btol2 sangkut,ko buat jht lak kan...

'D':

Tp ko kna igt gak pe yg ko dh kna...minah2 yg dulu pu mula2 ckp syg gler la kat ko,tp hampeh gak.Ko pk r,de ke yg nk org mcm ko ni?gmok,xde rupa...suma anggap ko ni cam sampah jela weh...skrg pompuan fizikalistik,materialistik...ko ni kira

last choice la...dh clash dgn pakwe baru,bru diorg ngada2 rujuk ko blk.

'A':

Ko kna sabar je.X lama lg ko masok U,mgkin bleh jumpe true love ko kat sana.Kalo nasib ko baik,ko dpt pi korea,dpt gak awek korea kan...

'D':

Tu kalo nasib baek,tp kalo buruk camne?x dpt pi korea,kna tggal la,ko pun tau sakit camne kan.Ko live je life pasang ramai2 ni.Org nk tggalka

n ko?ko bleh buat rilek je nnt,de back-up,xde r sakit.

'M':

.....ntah la....

'A':

Ko try jalani idop ko cam biasa tanpa sakiti ati org lain.Mana la tau,slh sorg awek2 yg lpas2 tu btol bukak mata,nk ko blk,syg ko gler2,nk jaga ko smpai mmpos,kan OK tu.

'D':

Pastu kna tggal blk.Mulut,mcm ayat2 boleh kluar,bkn bleh caya.Janji sekadar ckp je.

'M':

Dh r!lantak la,aku tido dulu.Malas aku nk pk skrg.

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...i still don't know which one i should follow,after all the things that happened....

:'(