great,now i'm the bad guy.

-"Kenapa kamu tinggalkan dia?Sebab tak dapat tubuh dia?"

-"Kamu pernah ajak dia pergi hotel eh?"

Wha-?!What the hell are these?

BULLSHITS,i tell you!

C'mon!what next?!i'm a killer??

damn,insulted...

i know i'm having a troublesome life already..

but to be this bad? oh god..

speechless...meaningless...lifeless...

:'(

gosh,only god knows how regretted i am for knowing you at the first place.

what a GREAT life i'm having.

a great lie

i dont like u guys.

i annoyed with all of u.

i ashamed with u guys.

u guys sucks.

i will never remember every each of one of u.

i am regret knowing each one of u.

i hate all of u,DPI.

see u guys next semester.

oh,what a great liar i am.

iheartDPI

"Aku saje nak perhatian.Jumpe korg time sem. 2 nanti"

There's a reason why im having this 'mohawk' haircut,

why i repeatedly joking around with paty and aimi,asking to steal my heart,

why i chose to make a video with all of us ONLY instead of drama in front of others,

There's a reason why i share with aimi and angel some of my problem and stories in these recent days,

why i often call and wave and smile at fira without any intention,

why i ignore any ruckus that prevent me from enjoying the happiness with u guys,DPI.

There's a reason why i start talking to fika even though i sworn before not to,

why i keep on teasing angel at Buku Hijau,

sometimes teasing iman and paty,

teasing aimi over and over again,almost everyday.

There's a reason why i turned my head away and tried not to look yek or apiz in depression,

why i love to see everyone smiling and laughing to adib's funny jokes or actions,

why i always ask safwan and wan to play psp with me.

Sori,sara,i being mad at u,it's not on purpose,

even though u're quite changed recently,

but i smile when seeing u and fasha,

as i said,im happy when u are,

hope im still ur bestfriend :')

There's a reason why i sometimes try to cuddle with u guys,

a reason why i speechless when thinking of u guys,

a reason why i shed my tears when seeing the pics of all of us,alone.

A reason where i took a phone in a sorrowful moment,

a moment where i felt like there's no meaning of friends,family and future,at that time...

a moment where troubles and problems presented in my mind...

a moment that lead to a stupid decision.

...

oh God,give strengths to all of these great people to face their life,

grant them eternal success and wonderful future.

"Jumpe -> Rindu"

iheartDPIsem1,2011

the surroundings

Various attitudes,events and expression present.

A girl is under pressure upon the assignments given.

A guy that shout with joy as his state football team won.

A girl happily chatting with her lover.

With a table that full of empty cups.

Along with other tables that full of seniors' works.
Some couples having their meals together.
And some groups having discussions.
Cats patrolling around,searching for leftovers to eat.
Some bugs hitting the the lights as they were captivated.
Laptops was seen almost everywhere.
With dark sky that fills with stars,outside the windows.
Midnight almost struck.
Psp lay on the table with empty battery.
Then,a man with uniform entered as a 'get out' sign.
Also as a sign for me to stop writing this post.

end.

fed up

ko nak telan sepapan ubat?ko nk trjun tingkap?ko nk maen pisau?

sbb pe?sbb aku?

tu sbb nyer aku down dgn ko tau x.

ko igt aku ske ke ko 'love-obsessed' ni smpai nk bunuh diri?

ko nmpk aku mmg dh naik mnyampah dgn ko,siap tengking ko,wlaupun ko dlm suicide mode kan?

sbb aku dh FED UP.

1st time ko ugut aku ko nk buat bnda bodo,aku dh down dh.

ko btol2 mencabar tahap kesabaran aku.

mentang2 aku baik,ko nk buat aku cmni.

ko igt aku x sggup ke nk biarkan org lain buat bnda bodo mcm ko buat ni?

Yup,kalo boleh aku nk jd camtu tp malang nyer ko buat aku jd jahat blk.

sori,aku bkn nyer baik pun.

Ko blum knal lg aku siapa sebnarnya.

Baguslah la pun ko buat cmni.

ko dpt kwn amik berat gler kt ko utk ko tengking2.

Pastu mmbr2 ko suma nnt pandang taik kt aku mcm aku yg diperslhkan dlm kes suicide mode ko ni.

Pdhal,ko mmg ske buat bnda2 bodo ni.'Thanks' r wei.

Jgn igt org lain ske dgn prangai ko ni.

Kalo ko pnat nk pujuk aku,org lain lg pnat nk pujuk ko.

Ko nk trjun tingkap,main pisau?plg koman pun ko famous msok paper,xpun UPM tmbah sekor lg hantu.

Ko nk telan ubat byk2? fikir la,ubat2 tu bkn utk ko sorg.Byk org lain yg memerlukan tp ko beli utk main telan2 lak.

Ko nk mengamok dpn suma org?bukan nyer org suka sgt ko tengking2,jerit2 dpn diorg ni,ngok.

Ko nak salahkan aku?GO ON,like i even care.

Aku dh muak dgr maaf2 ko tu.

Tp ko fikir la elok2,HIDUP jauh lg ko nk tempuh,ko mau kasi pendek.

Aku pun byk bnda nk kna pikir slain ko.Bkn ko sorg je yg rasa miserable skrg ni.

Jgn fikir aku suka nak buat ko cmni.

Jgn fikir aku happy post bnda ni.

Adios.

sori,totally fed up with u.

i couldn't care anymore even if i want to.BYE

a lifetime's Quote IX

THE REAL QUESTION IN LIFE ISN'T WHETHER YOU'LL BE LOVED,

IT'S WHETHER YOU CAN TAKE THE HURT AFTER THAT.

I'm just tired of u,sorry

It kinda depressed.

I'm being pushed and pushed everyday...

She thought that she the only problem that i had to handle?

oh geez,that's fuck...

=.='''

There's no way it going to be like this.

I'm the one who supposed to be dominant.

ego?

hell yeah,i am!

I AM GUY,for god's sake!

'girl's had much ego over a guy',okay,that's just sucks...

especially in a relationship..

Complaints,mistrust,blaming me...

then 'sorry'

and again,complaining,mistrust,put the blame on me...

end up with apologizing AGAIN

fed up la weyh!

So,***,sori.

u did it again.

im just sick of ur attitude.

im just sick of ur complaints.

im sick of u.

U think u the only who can get crazy?

U think u the only one who being miserable after all these?

Do anything stupid as u very please,i could care less.

im just goddamn tired of u.

im done with u,fullstop

blogku,assignmentku (??)

yeah,i didnt lie about the title.

i had to make 3 post within these 3 days.

Everyone can guess,it was ICT's assignment =.='

but who knows it would be kinda fun actually :)

^

(this pic got nothing to do with this post,actually :P )

LOL

So,what kind of fun?

i managed to increase my follower from 8 to 23 within 1 day because of this assignment,hehe

(normal la,x hotstuff pun :P )

So,i guess this superb SHORT post would be the 1st one :D

p/s, ICT rox! :P

Eid Ul Fitr '11

HARI RAYA 2011

Macam tahun2 sebelum,raya kat umah tok ajah dulu,gemokkan diri,suma kat situ.

And yeah,this year family aku warna PINK! =.=''

LOL :P

tok ajah pun join sekaki warna pink,haha

Then,sesi bersalaman and bermaafan pun bermula..

$_$

hehe

mama and abah...macam kartun =.=''

the eldest,Dila

big bro,Angah

and this is me...

si kecik,Azziz

...then ptg tu gi blk kg kt johor lak.Khamis blk shah alam blk.

nothing new,just ulang buat bnda sama setiap tahun :P hahahaha

yess!mmg aku malas nak update bahagian yg lain2 tu,HAHA

power rangers satu colour empat beradik :P

LOL

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN :)

p/s, nik dh mula pggil aku pinky :P haha,luv u sis

n berat aku pun dh naik balik =.='''

puasa penuh :P LOL

2000,2001,2002,2003,2004,2005,2006,2007,2008,2009,2010,

2011!

STRIKE!

Puasa penuh!

then,lpas dh abis bulan puasa ni...

Syawal pun tiba,perut n poket pun berisi.

(pink =.=' it's not my choice...it's parents' n dila's )

anyway,

HAPPY EID UL FITR

lol